sat night

nothing in particular,...just itchy fingers,..mansfield park is great,..sh*t tat i miss the first hour,.....if ya wanna read,....

,...Fanny Price,..loved her strong character,...and of cos tat Edmund's a "sloth" sweetie,..talking about sloth,.wondering if SADAKO's creation is base on a female sloth when on the ground,..kindof a resemblance,...

wow wow yeah yeah,...

going to jrc,...yeah,..stay in stay in stay in ,..gonna get tortured by the "bayi" soon,gonna have colors every single day(i hate this colors)...sometimes,..i'm bit of a sadist,..how should i say,..sometimes,.i just like to have a tough time,..it makes me learn to appreciate the "normal" time,..it's fun anyway,..life's such a bored to be smooth sailing,..

i had this weird dream sometime ago tat i can do pull ups,....i saw myself pulling up at my home's chin up bar,..and i was so happy,..i continue to do so many,..as i felt so effortless,...and when i wake up,..the funny thing is,..i can hardly do a perfect flex arm hang,...i need muscles,....on my upper body ,....pls,..

yeah,..as if praying to myself would bring muscles in at once,..
all the push-ups are no use,..or maybe,.i'm not doing enough,..

pls ignore the following:

i just can't get enough of,..corn,.peas,..carrots,..tofu,..breakfast cereals,..,..beans,.mushrooms,..well its like i can live forever with breakfast cereals as all my main meals,..breakfast,..luch,..or dinner,..snacks,..

think the negative side of it,..its like dogs,..eating tat particular brand of dog food ,.over and over, from birth till heaven,...try asking if the dog is sick of the same thing everyday,.every meal...but you still see them grobbing up the food as if ,.."wow,..i've never taste such wonderful dish before" tat is how cute a dog is,.."OHHH"

,............grandma,.....................,.................where areyouyouyouyouyyouyouyou,..........................?????,..........?,..?,.the dust covering your bed is one cm taller,.....come see,.....

its weird,..certain subjects that i don talk to my bro about,..and the same things i would with my friends,...i mean,..wats keeping back,..i got a dictionary at home,..whom will give me good answers,...too,...24 hours a day,..

"is tat classical or wat,.." heavens,.my heavy,.death metal,.."highway to hell",..plus totally irritating bro is "changing material,.from metal to wood,.."

rae's getting married next year,..and i just miss my chance to be the bride's maid,..wat a chance of a life time,...sorry rae,................ .... .. . . . . . . .. . . . .. .. .

after listening to my friends' enjoyment on their overseas leave,..i wanna go overseas too,...mai dong xi chi dong xi,..not forgetting kan dong xi,..pai dong xi,..after watching titanic,.i wanna go cruising too,....all right,..

tats all folks,....i had enough for today,...happy week ahead,.....

sat night

nothing in particular,...just itchy fingers,..mansfield park is great,..sh*t tat i miss the first hour,.....if ya wanna read,....

,...Fanny Price,..loved her strong character,...and of cos tat Edmund's a "sloth" sweetie,..talking about sloth,.wondering if SADAKO's creation is base on a female sloth when on the ground,..kindof a resemblance,...

wow wow yeah yeah,...

going to jrc,...yeah,..stay in stay in stay in ,..gonna get tortured by the "bayi" soon,gonna have colors every single day(i hate this colors)...sometimes,..i'm bit of a sadist,..how should i say,..sometimes,.i just like to have a tough time,..it makes me learn to appreciate the "normal" time,..it's fun anyway,..life's such a bored to be smooth sailing,..

i had this weird dream sometime ago tat i can do pull ups,....i saw myself pulling up at my home's chin up bar,..and i was so happy,..i continue to do so many,..as i felt so effortless,...and when i wake up,..the funny thing is,..i can hardly do a perfect flex arm hang,...i need muscles,....on my upper body ,....pls,..

yeah,..as if praying to myself would bring muscles in at once,..
all the push-ups are no use,..or maybe,.i'm not doing enough,..

pls ignore the following:

i just can't get enough of,..corn,.peas,..carrots,..tofu,..breakfast cereals,..,..beans,.mushrooms,..well its like i can live forever with breakfast cereals as all my main meals,..breakfast,..luch,..or dinner,..snacks,..

think the negative side of it,..its like dogs,..eating tat particular brand of dog food ,.over and over, from birth till heaven,...try asking if the dog is sick of the same thing everyday,.every meal...but you still see them grobbing up the food as if ,.."wow,..i've never taste such wonderful dish before" tat is how cute a dog is,.."OHHH"

,............grandma,.....................,.................where areyouyouyouyouyyouyouyou,..........................?????,..........?,..?,.the dust covering your bed is one cm taller,.....come see,.....

its weird,..certain subjects that i don talk to my bro about,..and the same things i would with my friends,...i mean,..wats keeping back,..i got a dictionary at home,..whom will give me good answers,...too,...24 hours a day,..

"is tat classical or wat,.." heavens,.my heavy,.death metal,.."highway to hell",..plus totally irritating bro is "changing material,.from metal to wood,.."

rae's getting married next year,..and i just miss my chance to be the bride's maid,..wat a chance of a life time,...sorry rae,................ .... .. . . . . . . .. . . . .. .. .

after listening to my friends' enjoyment on their overseas leave,..i wanna go overseas too,...mai dong xi chi dong xi,..not forgetting kan dong xi,..pai dong xi,..after watching titanic,.i wanna go cruising too,....all right,..

tats all folks,....i had enough for today,...happy week ahead,.....

king tutankhamun

being as bored as i can ,..and as bored about tomorrow as i can,.....let me present to you ,...wat i have achieve throught this period of bordness

LOVE POEMS FROM ANCIENT EGYPT
The ancient Egyptians left behind various love poems which relate the emotions felt all those thousands of years ago. And yet, they can be read as if they apply to us in the 20th century - has anything really changed? I think not.



Extract from a 3,000 year-old papyrus.
She is one girl, there is no one like her.
She is more beautiful than any other.
Look, she is like a star goddess arising
at the beginning of a happy new year;
brilliantly white, bright skinned;
with beautiful eyes for looking,
with sweet lips for speaking;
she has not one phrase too many.
With a long neck and white breast,
her hair of genuine lapis lazuli;
her arm more brilliant than gold;
her fingers like lotus flowers,
with heavy buttocks and girt waist.
Her thighs offer her beauty,
with a brisk step she treads on ground.
She has captured my heart in her embrace.
She makes all men turn their necks
to look at her.
One looks at her passing by,
this one, the unique one.




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Two more works from different periods.




I wish I were your mirror
so that you always looked at me.
I wish I were your garment
so that you would always wear me.
I wish I were the water that washes
your body.
I wish I were the unguent, O woman,
that I could annoit you.
And the band around your breasts,
and the beads around your neck.
I wish I were your sandal
that you would step on me!
(Not sure about that last sentence!) O my beautiful one,
I wish I were part of your affairs, like a wife.
With your hand in mine
your love would be returned.
I implore my heart:
"If my true love stays away tonight,
I shall be like someone already
in the grave."
Are you not my health and my life?
How joyful is your good health
for the heart that seeks you!

the thing about men and women,..had been there,..ever since adam and eve,...so,.............. ......i believe,..its not the forever tat counts,..its the forever,...you understand me,..???
see,..this is forever,.the poem,...wow,...even that forever is not forever,..this poem is forever,...so,........ .... ... ... .i believe ,..its tat forever in your heart,...don have to be forever in other means,...understand,..??

it is like no goodbyes,..only forever,...from some teevee,..

imagine,..you are in the olden eygpt,..well,..nvm,...

finally,....

ok,....so far,....nothing interesting going on,..ya,..jen jen jen jen jen jen jen jen jen jen jen jen jen jen jen jen jen jen NY!! hahaha,...

hmmmm,..

i like friendliness,..my way,...



no goodbyes,...only love,...from the tee vee

don leave voice messages,...don you know how irritating it is to call back and listen,....????????? unless,..ya gonna sing a song at the end,..tat,..i don mind,...


consuming way too much ice-cubes,.....dentist anyone,..?? i'll invest in you,....just make sure my teeth are all intact wen i'm old,..thank you


trust me,..i'm in winter season now,...

mansfield park,...friday,..10pm,...
titanic tomorrow,..
and ,...
vertical limits,...next week

i should get myself scv,..and sit myself through the days,.and rear some spiders,..

if i'm not where i am,..i will be
a house designer,..
a zookeeper
a cafe owner,...
a waitress in a cafe

my passion for jogs,.seem to have died away,.i'm just too lazy,.to continue with my daily jogs,..so,.for now,.i'll just "go" as i wish,...

"performing burial ceremony for "daily jogs""

past deaths
"daily piano"
"daily crunches"
"daily prayers"
"daily diary"
"daily skipper"
"full time in a world of my own"
"full time having a "dog" of my own"
"part time hero"
"full time dreaming being business women"
"part time acting as a wanderer"
"full time being a cartoon character"
"full time being sis to two siblings"
"bits and pieces of being a rock star"
"bits and pieces of being a sister of a heavy metal rock star"
"full time thinking weewoo is my dog"
"part time living in a three-story house"
"bits and pieces of being the owner of my grams coffeehouse"

lots more,...... .... .. .



tee vee here i come,.....

majo no jouken

ima doko ni iru no?
jiyuuna kuni...
sokokara nani ga mieru no?
hikari...
hikari?
aa...
watashi mo ikeru ka na...soko ni ikeru ka na...
ikeru yo...hontou ni ikitai to omoeba...zettai ni ikeru yo...
where are you now?

a place of freedom...
what can you see from there?
light...
light?
ah...
can I go there too I wonder? can I go there too?
you can...if you really want to go...you can...


kore wo anata ga yomu toki ha, atashi ha
kono yo ni inai kamoshiremasen
demo onegai dakara, atashi no ato wo ou no koto
dake de ha shinaide. datte, jiyuu no kuni ha
shinde shimattara ikenain dakara
jiyuu to iu ji ha dou kaku omoidashite mite
mizukara ga iru riyuu tte kaku no yo
jibun ga ikiru yokorobi ya ishi wo shuchou suru koto wo
jiyuu tte iun ja nainkana.
dakara nani ga attemo ikitsudukenakya imi ga nai no
donna ni tsurakutemo kurushikutemo
ikite ikanakya dame na no
hontou ha jiyuu no kuni nante doko ni mo nai no
jiyuu no kuni ha jibun no te de tsukuru mono na no

hontou ha jiyuu no kuni nante doko ni mo nai no,
jiyuu no kuni ha jibun no te de tsukuru mono na no.
in truth, there is no such place of freedom anywhere,
the place of freedom is a place that's made with one's own hands.

theories flying out from my mind,..........

a friend of mine once told me to save up for any raining days,....she say ,..don let any one know how much you are saving,..not your friends,..not your loved ones,..not even your family,...it doesnt meant tat you are stinko or selfish or wat,..it is just saving for any wet season,...

thinking about it,.......... well,..it can be true,...

$$$$$$ ,....makes the world crazy,....

LOL!!!,.

the more $$ you have,.the more you will find tat it is not enough,....humans are never contented animals,..sometimes,.how i wish i am born in the old age,..

the more you travel,..the smaller you will feel about your exsistence (less den 0.000000001 percent of the whole world population knows you),...you will feel tat the people around are placed on more priority to your life (cos there are so many people in the world,.and yet,.only 0.0000001 percent of that billion is fated to even heard about you,counting those tat hates you...and you will began to see certain things in your life are not tat important anymore,........so be happy tat someone dislike you,.at least the person knows you,...

humans are not born to be bad,...they are just born to be the way they are to survive in this world,.....

no one is perfect,..not your mum,..your dad,..your lover,..your favourite idol,.your best friend,...the one you put on highest pedestal,..even you ,.me,...the cutest dog in the world so,..don put them so high up,..it will cause you to have a long long fall if there is any disappointment,.

human tends to be more forgiving toward strangers and new friends rather den old friends/ relatives or close ones,.. on same mistakes made,..cos,..they tend to feel tat the closer ones to them are better at understanding them , and through tat,..less tendency to make the mistakes,...which is usually not the case,..........

people of different colors,..temperment,..character,...opinions,..thinking,.. makes the world goes round,...to create a picture perfect,....

it is dull to have everyone thinking somewat the same,..everytime,

different people gets the "drive" from different things...wats yours,..??

how to tell if a person is telling somewat a lie,..??
simple,...the person raises his/her eyebrows ,.....

raising of eyebrows,..means,..something negative,..unsure,..

when ya thinking,..you tend to raise your eyebrows,..
so if ya see someone raising them,..means,.they are still thinking,..

person 1:are you sure??
person 2:ya,...(raises his eyebrows),..(he is not so sure,..at least not 100%)

body language needs no deeper understanding,..tats why,.we can understand so many different animals on the things they do,..although we don understand their voices,...always don assume by wat is said,..but see,..and feel if there is any thing deeper den wat is being heard by your very ears,...

words from the mouth are the most frequently lies,.......
body language ,..expressions,.are the lie detectors,...
try it yourself,...

greatest actors,.and actress practice on themselves so that they don show body language of lying ,..tat is why sometimes,..viewers don think some are good actors,..its because their body language don potray their lines,...

i had enough for today,...happy sunday all,........

you don you won no way i say,..you didn you doesn you isn you wasn,..you woould you should you you ought and you shouldn,..love no body but me,..

have a happy day,..all,..

ya,..i long time din jog le,..*diot,..well,.anyway,..
hehehehehehehhehehhehehehhehehehehhehehhehehehhehe

a little bored
yeh,.last day of work,..cos,.i have my sat back,.

bro's into jap songs,...into very old jap songs,...LOL,..tat creepo,.

*din you open your eyes,..cos i never did,...*BG

wat was the last thing on your mind when you close your eyes for the night rest,..???
think of something sweet,......it will provide you a night of sweet dreams,..
my theory,..

*little bitty pretty one,..come on and tok to me,.....* FL

the few months in camp,..since like i have been there for years,...

it is never good to lie,...one lie will lead to another,...and another,..till the end of time,...hahaha,.wat am i saying,.??
hai,...however,..white lie,..is another thing,..
batch guys toughen up ,...and i've well,...been lossen up,..slacking like no tomorrow,..

there is always a kid in every one of us,...tats why,..we remain very much the same throughout our life,..
everyone of us,...has a soft concious (dunno how to spell) well covered to protect ourselves,....cos ,..we are only human,....


"a winner makes commitments
a loser makes promises" ??

gotta rem this,.for my jogs,..

*i never know wat the future brings,..but now you are here with me now,.........*DB

^_^(all teeth) tml is friday,..

current suitation "empty ,..but full of goodness"
there is more tat i can achieve,....but i am jus lazy,..
someone pull my start plug....the enthu is currently hibernating,....

good night,.....

*since you've been gone,..don't you know i ,..sitting around,..with my head hanging down,.and i wonder,....whos loving you,.....* MJ

you have only one chance being alive in this big big world,..
no matter wat,..move on,..cos there are better things out there,...
i wanna explore this world world world so big,...

,..............

All u want to know abt meMessage: Message: FACT 1:- Name-jean- Birth date: 21 march 84- Birthplace: kk hospital at 10++ am - Current Location: melted in billy gilman's voice - Eye Color: brown or black- Hair Colour: Natural Black or dark brown - Height: 163- Right handed or Left handed: Right--------------------------------------------FACT 2:- Heritage: coffeshop twanger - Weakness: impatient,..- Biggest fear : all that i have now,..- Your perfect pizza: cheesey cheesey ,...with chilli - Goal you'd like to achieve: Do the things i want to do----------------------------------------------FACT 3: Your?- Most overused phrase(s): idiot,..kns -Thoughts first waking up: overslept again - Best physical feature: hmmm,..- Usual bedtime: no fixed time - Most missed memory: days where i was very young and opened to the wide world--------------------------------------fACT 4: Preferences..?- Pepsi or Coke: Coke- McDonald's or Burger King: mac- Single or group dates: Single- Lipton Iced Tea or Nestle tea: lipton- Chocolate or vanilla: Vanilla - Cappuccino or Latte: latte------------------------------------------------FACT 5: Do you;?- nope- Sing: everyday - Take a shower every day: of cos,.unless its a camp thing - Have a crush(es): yep- Think you've been in love: yup- Want to get married: well,..married is jus a piece of paper - Believe in yourself: of cos,..there is only one me in this world - Get motion sickness: not that i know of - Think you're attractive: attractive,..?? hmm,..- Think you're a health freak: can be,... but,..- Get along with your parents: yup,..unless they nag too much - Play an instrument: Yepz,.piano,.french horn,.-------------------------------------------------FACT 6: In the past month, you?- Drank alcohol: nope- Gone on a date: Yep- Gone to the mall: Yep- Eaten sushi: yup - Been on stage: nope- Gone skating: Nopez,..long time din go le- ---------------------------------------FACT 7:- Age you hope to be married: when time comes,..it comes,..- Numbers and Names of Childrens: when the time comes, u will know- Describe your Dream Wedding: hmmm,..- How do you want to die: sleeping away - What do you want to be when you grow up?: ehh,..-------------------------------------------------------------------------------FACT 9: List the number of:- Drugs taken illegally: None- People trust with my life: hmmm,..- Cds u Own: very little,.less den ten - Piercings:ya,.ear,..- Tattoos: None- Scars on my body: Lots- Things in my past I wanna forget in the past: i wanna rem everything-------------------------------------------------FACT 10: What..?-Music are you listening to now? i wanna get to ya,..-Time is it now? 2100hrs-Your handphone model? samsung,..-What are the THINGS you tresure the most? everything tat i have right now-What is ur fav subject? hmmm,....-Subject do you hate the most? ehh,..

ya,...

have been seeing tis quite old lady for quite a few times,....she is

walking very slowly,...and i *hope* with no pain,..i guess she has got arthritis,...like my mum * sh*t*

so all,...drink more milk,..get more omega three,..or issit six,..??

remember tat arthritis can be pass down,..through generation,.... *sh*t*

so you there,...sit straight ah,..well,...

how you wan your life to be,...all depends on you,...^^

^_^

wat to say,...hahahhaa,..i have a very happy day today,..and its just the start of the day,...well,..all,....have a happy day today,.....

oh,...ya,..i have not been jogging for such a long time,.....at least its something to be sad about,....

so,..must not find excuses not to jog again,...pls,..

hehehe,...nvm,..start on mon again,...

wasn't it always the case,....




i know.

its over 6am

its way over 6am ,..normally,..i'm already on my way to the mrt,...but today,..i'm out station to tuas,...heehee,...its great to have ,..even a little change in this routine,........

wonders wat type of ship i'll be posted to,...big overseas one,..or those small local ones?
both have their pros and cons,...i ,...for now,..would prefer overseas one,..of cos,...well,..just leave it to fate ,....

just tried on jogging when i reached home every evening,...it is nice,...^_^ ,..yup,..i'm back on my jogs,...but still a little lazy on my morning ones,...have missed three in a row,........

yeah,..i'm clearing my leave soon,....

things tat needs to be done includes

packing my wardrobe,...
throwing away useless stuff
get my marine books out to give them some attention
spent more time with my dad
give my family a treat
buy something for myself
pay my irritating bills
eat less biscuits,..cheese,..and peanut butter
return the peterpan thing to vette
try to pay a visit to my old bike at aunt's place
spent more time on sipping tea and reading story books
jog more often,..increase my distance
play more memory games,..
surf on the net less,..
blog less
try to finish learning a song from my piano
find something different to do,.