must train harder,...

,......feeling so sad,..bout family,...why things have to be the way they are,...? poor old grams living so many years in hard work,....bearing kids,...without really having a good life,now she is so old,..to even enjoy the wonders of life,......loud voices travelling through the house the whole lunar new year,....hardly have peace in the ear,.... .... ... .. .. .. . ..why do i always take things for granted,... ... my sight is always what is there is front of me,..what i hear,..how i feel,..can't i just feel, think and have sight for things far ahead,..long long ahead,..so i would not take things for granted,..well,....at the same time i'm saying all this,..i already feel half-hearted,..... ....having a runny nose and a sore throat,..too much chocolate during the festive,....gonna try jogging the 20 rounds later,...i've a feeling that i can't do it,.... ...
its already the 26 jan 2004 ,.....26 days have passed by without me "knowing" ,.....

zhi yao ni neng kuai le,...wu suo wei ,...